Well hello there. It's been quite some time since we last spoke. Unfortunately I'm not nearly as happy as the last time I wrote a blog. I feel broken way too often, I don't want to be depressing so I apologize in advance for the rest of this post.

I just don't feel like I'm okay anymore.

I constantly feel unintelligent and like I'm just not pretty enough.

I figure there must be a reason he doesn't reciprocate my feelings even though everyone seems to think he's enamored with me.

So I just keep finding things wrong with myself.

I keep making up reasons why I'm not good enough.

Even before him I felt like I was breaking down.

Now it's so much worse.

I feel abandoned by my friends.

They're either too caught up with their own lives to care.

Or they never cared enough to notice anything is wrong.

I just want to fall asleep for days at a time so that I can escape this all for a while.

...Sorry...that was terribly depressing. I'm fine though. Don't worry.